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Unconditional Love

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Many years I tried to become good enough to prove to God I was sincere, so that He would accept me. I had been in church since I was a child yet there was such a lack in my heart and I could not find an answer.

         I could not believe that such a wonderful loving God could possibly love such a one as I. No, not until I came to a higher level. I did not know that God’s love is unconditional, that He just loves His children.

I actually got this idea from things of which I heard, many of the things that were being taught right inside the church.

So many have made the loving Father as a mean, hateful God, just waiting to destroy. How sadly wrong this is for as the word says, St John 3: 16 God so loved the World that He gave His only begotten Son.

So the terrible misunderstanding was not only in my mind but it was obviously in many others and there was a great lack of understanding the loving God.

I heard the word taught I attended church services yet it was not working for me. Times I actually felt something had to be wrong with me for others appeared to be content with what was being served in the services.

Something was drawing me and at times I even felt driven to find, to learn a better way than what I had experienced thus far.

Yet in my mind I was still hearing, help is not coming, not unless I did much better than I was not until I prove to God I truly wanted His way.

I truly wondered if I was ever going to find the peace that I was desperately in search of.

I really did not know what loving Him was, I tried and I prayed at times for hours but a real breakthrough did not come by the way I thought it was going to.

Breakthrough did come but not until I stopped trying within myself to be accepted by some little works of my own.

The help that I was searching for came after I had failed in my efforts. The pressure of trying got me down and I gave up. I walked away due to the stress that went with trying to do so good and being all I thought the Lord was asking of me.

He never left my thoughts, I never stop praying for I knew that I needed the Lord but still how could He love one such as I was still in my mind.

He never left me; actually I found during this time just how close He was to me. I found out just how much my Lord and savior truly loved me.

I felt as if I could not be lower in spirit than I was. There were those that spoke badly of me yet they did not know what my Lord and savior had in store for such a one as I.

Yet, here the Lord and savior appeared unto me and He was talking to me and all the while His love was flooding my soul until running over.

He was telling me how special I was to Him, He told me that I did not have to prove anything to Him that He had proven His love for me and all that I had to do was accept He loved me right where I was. 

Right then and there I was receiving the very thing that I had so longed for and searched for. I realized that I could not make myself worthy enough good enough. I had to learn it is not by the work of ones self.

I was accepting His love that He loved me though He knew me and all my failures and shortcomings. I could not know this until I was brought to a very low point in my life.

I have never felt the same since that dark hour of my life when the true light came to my understanding.

I have tried to share this experience with others but some almost appear to be upset with how the Lord did this great work in my life. Almost appear to be disbelieving of God coming to where His children are right in the midst of calamity.

 Oh, but He came to me in the form and fashion that I so needed Him.

I realize now that many are still in the bondage that I was once in. I realize that they are in need of such an experience for their own life and many need to hear the word that it is not by their works nor their goodness for there is none good but one and that is the Heavenly Father.

Each of us is saved by the grace of our Lord Jesus our savior He will come right to where you are. He will show up in the darkest hour of your life. Jesus is not afraid of the dark He has the light to make the way clear for His dear ones that seek Him.

The Lord will come to the one that is seeking His love and it is not after becoming good enough for none of us could ever be good enough.

 I serve and reverence the Lord because He loves me. He has proved His love to me when I doubted that He could love such a one as I.

I can truly say, I love Jesus Christ because I know He loves such a one as I, He is a wonderful savior. He lifted me higher after I stop trying to lift my self. Praise the Lord!

If this message has been for you and you have been searching for His wonderful love. I want to ask you to just call of Jesus. There is no need to try and hide anything from Him just be honest and open your dear heart to Him.

He will give to you a true love such as you have never known in your life.


Sonja 7/22/09

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